Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely.

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On the road late last night driving in the mad rush - so wildly surreal - it didn't seem like our wide-eyed innocence was so long ago.


We were all desperately trying to fly, and we liked to believe we were. We always say, time/things/people change. So we moved on, often without each other, yet somehow in one way or another, we'd meet at the detour. There were always so much to tell, as though we had the world in our hands, yet we lament about how complicating/empty/worthless Life is over late night milo pengs.


This time, your world came crashing down. Everything you thought you knew was a big, fat lie. But there was no time to waste. It was time to move on. So there you go, pack away the supposed abode and run. Now you are back to build what was taken down, remnants of the consequences that ensued. And this is just the beginning.




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I supposed it's the red light now. The road, seemingly long and winding, awaits me. Every second feels like eternity, yet it is actually moving. No one is with me. The sky's all balmy and not at all blue like I have always hoped. The wind is strong though. But the sunlight is shadowing the wrong direction.

I remember that feeling of falling like I was falling out of bed when I was young, and it always woke me up. Like I was scared of what I was going to fall into. But these days, I know that if I do fall, it'll be into an empty pit. And I wouldn't feel anything at all.

"If you don't have a song to sing
You're ok
You know how to get along humming
If you don't have a date
Celebrate
Go out and sit on a lawn
And do nothing-
Cause it's just what you must do and
Nobody does it anymore."

Waltz (Better Than Fine)

Now I know, yes, the only way to find one's true self is by recklessness and freedom. So go on cheer up and smile!!