This is how it goes, you get angry at yourself.

Pardon me for that emotional outburst yesterday. I'm still farking angry. It's already so annoying when I have to do craps that a highler level person should do, and what that person does is just look at my work and agree with whatever I have done. It gets so farking uninspiring! And what I'm referring to now is the proper plan for the shifting of books at my dept. So I ended up doing everything by myself, I tell you.

And yesterday, THEY farking pissed me off!

AND I had to stay back farking late to do my shifting. But I was darn fortunate to have Eliz with me. Thanks to her. She's a a great help, she's done a lot. (and Ayu, although you've got to help me only the last bit.) So right now I won't give a heck of what's right to do and what's wrong. I'm gonna follow exactly whatever I've planned out since there are no amendments to it by the way. Damnit! I shall not think of work anymore now. It's making me farking sick!

Sue, thx for listening at that point of time. And Orange! You've always been there to hear millions of my freaking complaints which can be quite scary at times, I know. I owe you one. We'll go thru this together till the day we leave. Words cannot express my gratitude to you. Also thank you to everyone else (whom I am damned to have forgotten.) who have given words of support in another or one way. And I shall end here before it resembles an Oscar speech!


I'm tired. I don't want to be angry anymore. But I think I'm far too jaded to give a damn shit. Like I've said before I just let what i feel out of my system without filtering sometimes. Incurring the wrath of all the world's innocent people that walked my path. I apologise. I think human emotions can be so taxing.




Fark. That's enuff.

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Meanwhile, Tracy brought her son along to the shop today. He's only one year old and I'm telling you he's REALLY, REALLY cute!! There was once I carried him and he immediately lied on my shoulder like as if he wanna sleep already. It was an instant reaction. A few of my colleagues were there and they all laughed. Well at least that made my day!!

Some of you might have already known, I like playing with small kids (with the exception of the annoying ones.) So imagine if I were to be in the Children's section instead. I wouldn't be doing my job! And that was exactly what Amirah and some of the others had told me before. Damn.






I've been wanderin' around in the dark
Been lost somewhere where no light could shine on my heart
I have known a pain so deep
But I know my faith will free me
And I'll get through this
I'll find my way again