Confused thoughts.
At times -
I'm really confused with myself. I dunno why but I somehow had this feeling that I'm not a good friend. In fact I always do. You may say I think too much, I can't bring myself to explain why but this is wad I feel. Sigh, maybe it's just me. Maybe I am. It's strange how I always have that feeling, in school, in camp, it's like... it is DEFAULT in me. I got friends that I was close to in school but they are now just acquaintances. Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind? Then I got friends in camp whom I can fall back on whenever the "load" is too heavy and it gets bad, I know I'll be safe. It's the feeling you have when you know your friends are there for you. I guess I'm quite down nowadays cos I know that I might not get that feeling back. 9 more days... when the time is up...
At times -
I'm feeling really lost. That's when I sit down and reflect myself. Then I feel better. Sometimes when I really treat someone like a close friend, I will never get the same in return. There is this someone I treat like my close friend but at times I just feel that he is not as close as I want him to be. It's like the harder I try, the further he will go. You know it's alright friendships cant be forced yup.
At times -
I just wonder myself. I got a close friend I knew since school. I would always find myself really-trying-my-best to understand him each time but he's not. And whenever I went out with him, I somehow felt kind of left out sometimes, even though there were actually a few of my other friends. I know it's a little bit weird but I am not sure how to put it in words myself...
Well before I continue, I dont even get wad I'm saying. Dont worry I'm not getting all emo and such. Maybe I really think too much ya. Haha... I should just care less about all these things la. Life is short yup!!
[Taller, Stronger, Better]
I've met the darkness
Been held by the night
Lonely was there in my arms
I've been with broken
I've stared in her eyes
Emptiness left me this scar
But I heard your thoughts
Calling me out of the cold
And now I can live again
I have been chosen to run with the wind
I can go higher I know I will soar
I'm taller I'm stronger I'm better then before
I've walked through fire so I could become
All that you said I could be
And now my breath has a reason My sky has a sun
Coz in you I've found all that I need
Your touch revived me
It was your love that opened my eyes
Because I broke through the rain
Stuck through the storm
Now I know I remain
And I can do the impossible
I can reach the unreachable
It's my time I will rise and live
And I can go higher I know I will soar I'm taller I'm stronger I'm better then before
At times -
I just hope I'll be that someday, will I ever be...
